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The Ice House


My Grandpa was a marvelous storyteller. (Here he is, busy getting married; that’s him sitting down.) It seems strange to be explaining this, because this is one of the most important things about me: My Grandpa told stories–stories from his life, stories from his friends’ lives, stories he had heard, stories he read. As far as I know, he was the only man who ever became a member of the Harlequin Romances Book of the Month Club–and he told me those stories, too, and then he loaned me the books.

I had to give them back, though because they went to my Aunt Mo next, and then to Aunt Jane and sometimes Aunt Ruth, and then they went to the cousins. Grandpa got his money’s worth. He passed the Harlequins around like he passed around butterscotches–with a hand extended and a soft, “Ya like these, dontcha?”

Our love of stories bound us together; they became a password between us, a common language we both spoke, and the primer of this language was the stories Grandpa told about his life. Some of the stories he told over and over, using the same words, asking the same questions, clarifying the same points. And I listened, every time, because in those stories Grandpa created a world for me.

His stories gave me laughter, adventure, terror, irony, romance, and Family. In the end, they became such a part of me that I discovered I could tell them to my own son–in Grandpa’s words. I’ve been writing them down and integrating them into a novel. It’s a wonderful project, full of old houses and quiet, cool summer evenings and glasses of lemonade on porches. The following story is one he only told me once, when I was struggling through my first winter alone in Chicago, but I have thought of it often in the years since. Though I love all of his stories, if I could have only one, it would be this one, because this story gives me courage. I’m telling it for you, Pearl, because I think you’ll like it.

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In the winters when Grandpa was young, Pewaukee Lake froze over. Sometimes the ice got two or three feet thick. This meant many things to the town of Pewaukee. For one thing, it meant a large supply of ice for iceboxes. For another, it meant jobs.

The icehouse owner—“the little cheapskate,” Grandpa called him—assigned jobs by the day. He recorded each man’s time in a little black book, meticulously noting starting and quitting times, time taken off for lunch and for trips to the outhouse, shaving minutes where he could. Each Friday the men lined up for their wages. He’d open his little black book, squint and mutter, slowly total up their hours that week, re-total, then carefully count out wages, reducing a week of labor to pennies and nickels, grudgingly doled out.

“We hated him,” Grandpa said, “but we needed the work.” And hard, cold work it was, out on the lake with massive ice saws, picks, and chains, hacking giant blocks from the sheet ice, grappling it from green water that froze on fingers, loading it onto horse-drawn sledges, dragging it to shore, up the rough bank to the icehouse where men manhandled it into the ice house and buried it in sawdust against July.

The icehouse had a caste system. The best, steadiest workers worked in the first room, stacking the largest, evenest chunks of ice, packing them tightly in sawdust. They were paid fairly well. The weaker, less experienced men worked in the second room, packing smaller, irregular chunks of ice in sawdust. They were paid less. In the third room even less experienced, less reliable men worked, and so it went. There were seven rooms in that icehouse, and there were never enough good men. In the last room derelicts packed ice chips into sawdust for the price of a bottle. Grandpa had worked his way up to the first room that winter. So had Joe.

“He wasn’t a nice man,” said Grandpa. “He drank too much, an’ he gambled, and he had a girl and he got her in trouble, ya know, and didn’t do nothin’ about it, see. People said he hit her, but she stuck with him.” Grandpa shook his head not because the girlfriend stuck by Joe, but because Joe had fallen so low as to hit a woman, get her pregnant, and not marry her. “He was a good man on the ice, though,” Grandpa said, finally.

Pewaukee Lake didn’t freeze solid. There was a ‘drift,’ as Grandpa called it, a warm current running through the middle of the lake that always stayed open. One day, the men were hard at work cutting the ice at the edge of the drift when the icehouse owner drove up. The men weren’t working hard enough. They were taking too long at lunch. They weren’t cutting the ice right…

“We just let him yell,” Grandpa chuckled, “and went on loading the ice onto the sledge. And I don’t know exactly what happened, if it was an accident or if the driver did it on purpose, but when the sledge was full the driver started to back up, ya know, and the little cheapskate was behind him, yelling and shaking his fist, and that sledge just kept on backing up, and over he went, right into the drift.”

“Well, a course we fished him out right away, but it was bitter cold, and we knew we had to get him home, see. I had my car there, but I didn’t have no windows or a heater or nothin’—we didn’t in those days—just isinglass curtains.

“I went to work an’ put the curtains up and we got him right into the car and I drove as fast as I could, but the roads was pretty much drifted shut and icy underneath an’ I didn’t have no snow tires a course, just those little narrow tires, so I had to be pretty careful. By the time I got him home he was froze stiff, all hunched over in the seat there.”

“I yelled for somebody to help and the neighbors come runnin’ and we carried him into the house and sat him in a tub of ice water. That’s how ya gotta do it, ya know, ya can’t put’em in hot water. Ya gotta start with cold an’ warm’em up real slow, see. We warmed him up real slow, and in the end he was fine.”

“But he’d lost his little black book. It must’ve fallen out of his pocket there in the drift. Come Friday the men lined up and he sat there with his bag of change like he always did. Joe stepped up to the table and the boss said, “Now, I lost my book this week, but I don’t want to overpay any of you men. You tell me how many days you worked this time, and I’ll start with the black book again next week. Now, how many days did you work?” he asks Joe.

“Seven days, sir,” says Joe, an’ he grins.”

“You sure? Seems to me you missed a couple days.”

“No sir. It was seven days. Joe was lyin’,  see, but the little cheapskate couldn’t prove it; he’d lost his black book.”

The second man said he, too, had worked seven days. So did the third, and the fourth, and the fifth. Every man there, even the bums and winos, had worked a full seven days that week. The little cheapskate was furious.

“Most of’em was lying,” said Grandpa. “When it come my turn and he asks me and I says, ‘Seven days,’ too, but I really had worked all seven days,” said Grandpa. And he laughed.

“And the little cheapskate, he was so tight he said, “But you missed a couple hours the day you took me home. And he docked my pay. I shoulda just let the bum freeze.” Grandpa chuckled ruefully. “He was mad, see, because he knew a lot of the men was lying, but what could he do? He’d lost his book, and he needed men so he had to pay.”

We sat the warm living room. Snow sifted down outside the windows. In the kitchen, Grandma dropped something and said, “Shee-it,” without heat.

“Whatever happened to Joe?” I finally asked.

“Joe? Nobody really knows for sure. There was a blizzard that winter, and the boss told us to go on home, it was too dangerous; we wouldn’t be able to make decent time, anyway. The wind was howlin’ that day and I could barely see the trees on the hills around the lake. It looked like night, it was stormin’ so bad. Most of us just stood around the fire barrel warming our hands, and every once in a while somebody’d pull on his gloves and head home.

Joe, though, he decided to go ice fishing. He drove home and we thought he’d see sense and stay there, see, but he comes up the road in his old model T, his fishin’ gear in the back seat. “Don’t go, Joe,” we shouted. “Ya can’t see.”

“Aw, I can see all right,” he said. “I’m gonna go to work and catch me some fish.”

He never even stopped, Grandpa said, just rattled out onto the ice, and the snow swirled around him, pulling him out of sight, then sweeping aside to show glimpses of him as he sped across the ice toward his fishing shack. The wind died, and for a moment they could hear his engine, and see the square back of the Model T disappearing far too quickly into the gloom. The snow swirled up in his slipstream. And then it cleared again just long enough for the men around the fire to see Joe’s car shoot into the drift and sink out of sight. A splash, tiny in the wind, drifted back to them.

The men ran for ropes and a grappling hook. They formed a line from the icehouse, where the rope was moored, out to the edge of the drift. Over and over, they cast the grappling hook into the lake, let it sink into the stormy black opacity of Pewaukee Lake, dragged it slowly back through the icy water.

“We threw that hook all day,” Grandpa said quietly, staring down at his hands. “I was on the end of the rope most of the time.”

“Why? Couldn’t some of the other men have taken a turn?”

“Because I could. I was big and strong in those days, almost six feet, and my arms were—” and he flexed his gnarled arm like Popeye, and chuckled. “Who else was gonna do it? But I tell you, my arms sure ached from pitching that big hook over and over, with the wind screamin’ and the snow and ice cuttin’ into my face.”

At five that evening, the hook finally snagged on something. “We pulled it up real slow,” Grandpa said. “If we’d gone fast it would’ve broken loose, see.” It was the Model T. Joe still sat in the driver’s seat, blue and dead. They pulled him gently to shore.

“Some people thought maybe things just got too much for him with the gambling and his girlfriend pregnant and all,” Grandpa finished. “I don’t know. I don’t think he was the type to give up, but who knows?” He spread his hands and shrugged. Grandpa was a storyteller, not a preacher.

“Why didn’t you just leave him for spring?” I asked.

Grandpa’s eyebrows shot up. “We had to get him outa there!” he said, as emphatically as he ever said anything; Grandpa was not a man given to excesses of emotion.

“What did you do with him when you got him?” I finally asked, chastened.

“Oh, we put him on a door and carried him home. And we got together a collection for the girlfriend, something to help her out a little bit with the baby. It wasn’t enough, but what else could we do?”

I shook my head.  I had grown up with the gospel according to Sister White and my father—if I tried hard enough I could be happy; if I worked hard enough I could be secure; if I prayed often enough I could be saved. And yet, I had just heard my Grandpa tell me that there are some hurts too deep to fix, that sometimes doing everything you can just isn’t enough, that sometimes there is no happy ending.

“Tell me about the frog in the water bucket,” I begged.

“Didn’t I tell ya about that?” Grandpa laughed.

“Yes, but tell me again.”

And so he did, and then he told me the other old stories, and neither of us talked about what we both knew, that right then, in that living room, it was me at the end of my rope. We sat and finished the caramels, and from the kitchen Grandma muttered, “There, that’s done,” then called, “Bill, get in here.” We stood.

“I’d better get to bed,” I said. “Good night, Grandpa.”

“Plant one right there,” he told me, tapping his leathery cheek.

I planted one right there and went upstairs.

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Tonight Patrick and I were sitting on the couch avoiding homework and housework, petting the cats, and letting our minds wander, as is our custom at times like this.

“I think it would be funny to write a story where you purposely included typos,” said Patrick. “It could be a murder mystery, and at the end of the story there could be three people who could have done it, and the only way to find out would be by figuring out which words have typos and taking the first letter of each. Together, they would spell out the name of the person who did it.”

“Whoa,” I said. “That’s a great idea.”

And that’s as far as it went at that time, because our minds wandered off somewhere else. We often sound semi-wasted around here.

But now that I’ve had time to think about it, I realize that a) this really is a killer plot device, and I may well integrate it into a story somewhere; and b) Patrick truly is my son.

See, my very first novel, Redeeming Stanley, turns on a typo. Here’s what happens:

“I’ve always just adored the name ‘Stanley,’” Angela said breathlessly, resting a slender hand on her neighbor’s gnarled, tattooed forearm. Her clear-polished nails lay over the tattoo—a hooker with high hard boobs and sleek hips. Muscles flexed under Angela’s slender fingers. The hooker shimmied. Angela snatched back her hand.

“Name’s not ‘Stanley,’ lady,” Angela’s neighbor grunted. “You got the wrong house.”

“Stanley Prinz? Isn’t that your name?” Angela knew it was; his Publisher’s Clearinghouse Sweepstakes envelope said so. The neighbor lady, a scrawny old hen tarted up like a three-dollar whore, had forced Angela into robbing Stanley’s mailbox by the simple expedient of keeping her mouth shut.

There’s a story behind this. Way back when I was in college I had a professor who walked into the classroom lecturing, lectured at warp speed throughout the period, and walked out the door, still lecturing. And then he tested us on every. Frigging. Word. He. Said.

It took me exactly two weeks to develop a personal shorthand that was largely incomprehensible to anyone else. It was composed of symbols, abbreviations, and the sort of letter formation that led my father, himself no master penman, to say, “Bodie, your handwriting’s really gotten terrible.” He was right; it had. But I could read it, and I was passing History of England, which is all that mattered to me then.

Though I was delighted to be passing my class, I was somewhat troubled by the fact that I found it much faster and easier to write “Stan,” rather than “Satan.” It seemed disrespectful to be referring to the Prince of Darkness by a name that sounded like a short, fat guy in a wife-beater t-shirt. The guy might think I wanted to pal around or something. So I tried. I really did. But by the time I had passed my class Satan had largely been replaced by Stan, and Stan just wasn’t as scary, or as evil.

Maybe it was that transition that made it possible for me to later accept that our Devil is the direct descendant of Gods who weren’t evil at all; they were just unfortunate enough to be on the losing side of a power struggle that turned into a holy war. When a people is vanquished, so are their gods. Often they are turned into demons. Or jokes. Or Satan. Or Stan.

A misspelled word–a typo–laid the groundwork for a larger understanding, in my case–and eventually, for a character in my first novel.

Typos aren’t just written; they can be “aural malapropisms,” to quote the smart folks, or “mondegreens,” to quote the funny ones, like Sylvia Wright. Her essay, “The Death of Lady Mondegreen,” is a paean to the misheard word, and the creativity it can inspire.

Lady Mondegreen first appeared in Harper’s Magazine in November, 1954, accompanied by her friends Good Mrs. Murphy, the Earl A’Moray, and Round John Virgin, all of whom have largely faded into obscurity, though Round John Virgin enjoyed a brief renaissance a few years ago in the company of Olive, the Other Reindeer, yet another mondegreen.

Yesterday’s post was all about the Need for Editing, and the Shame of Typos, and I was right there, congratulating myself for my wisdom in hiring an editor, who will rid me of my verbal idiocies. And as a writer, I stand by every word I wrote.

http://t0.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcT6-FY19MdWbBLkDeSnvPy78YXllH1iz2veeP4hBNSw0PganujiBut I’m not just a writer. I’m an artist, too, and the artist in me delights in what my very first painting teacher called “happy accidents.” She was painting an extremely structured piece that owed much of its inspiration to Mondrian. And as she was painting one of her perfectly straight horizontal lines she got A Run. A droplet of deep mauve made its way down her canvas.

First she cursed. Then she said, “I don’t know how I’m going to fix it.” Then she came around and critiqued all of our student pictures.  Then she cursed some more. The next day she stood back from her canvas, tapped her teeth with the handle of her paintbrush, and said, “You know, I think I like this. It does something for the painting. I’m going to do it some more.”

And she took her brush and loaded it with paint and ran it over her nice straight horizontal lines. Then she stood back and watched it dribble down her canvas. When the paint set she went back in and added depth and dimension and contours to the dribbles. They acquired a life of their own. Those paintings became a hymn to happy accidents.

My professor’s celebration of happy accidents meant something to me that I never really understood until I read about Lady Mondegreen–and that I understood even better when I took an accidental abbreviation from my college notes and turned it into Stan, an old god who hates having to play the role of Satan–and who ultimately escapes in large part aided by Lady Mondegreen.

The thing about happy accidents is that they surprise us, and because they catch us unaware they have the power to slip inside our guard, and change our perceptions.But not always. In Redeeming Stanley, Angela is so convinced that she knows all there is to know about her neighbor that it takes something pretty dramatic to convince her that she really needs to go back and check her spelling:

He turned on her. “Lady, you don’t even know me.”

“But—”

“Look, you got no idea. Just … just go home.”

Her chin lifted. “I don’t have to know you to know that Jesus died on the cross for you, and that I love you.”

Stan stared. “You don’t love me,” he said. “You don’t know me.”

“Yes I do. You’re a child of God.”

“I am a god.” Stan closed his mouth. It was too late.

She stared at him. “That’s blasphemy,” she whispered.

“Just get away from me.” Now he was snarling.

“You’re not God,” Angela said mulishly. “You’re Stanley Prince.”

In a place where neither of them could hear it, a scale tipped.

“I—am—not!” roared the man formerly known as Stan.

But she was determined. “Your mail says so.”

“Do the people at Publisher’s Clearinghouse always spell your name right?” Stan turned and stormed toward his house. Angela stormed after him as well as she could, given her high heels and neat, slim line skirt.

He whirled. “Get away from me!”

He sounded a little desperate, but Angela ignored him. She trotted after him down his dusty hallway, past a skeletal philodendron and a dead ivy growing through a crack in the wall, and straight into his kitchen. She stopped short in the doorway when she saw his dog lying under the table. The dog lifted his head, panting.

It’s laughing at me, Angela thought. Then she thought, That’s ridiculous.

Stan yanked open a cupboard door. Contracts—far more than should have fit into a mere kitchen cupboard—cascaded onto the floor. Stan and Angela stood knee-deep in paper, glaring at each other.

“I. Am. Not. Stan,” Stan said through gritted teeth. He grabbed a contract and pushed it under Angela’s pert little nose. A thick, stubby, none-too-clean finger jabbed at a charred, smoky signature. “See? That’s who I am. That’s me.”

Angela laughed a merry, tinkling laugh. She forgot how nervous the laughing dog made her. “No, it’s not,” she trilled.

“Yes, it is. That’s my name on those contracts, and take a look at this…” he extended the stubby finger. A small flame danced on the broken fingernail.

“You are not Satan.” Angela started giggling again.

“Lady, I am.”

“No, you’re not. I couldn’t be in love with Satan. Jesus is in my heart, and he wouldn’t let me love the Devil,” she chirped. “You’re just playing a joke.” She gave him a bright smile. “But that’s okay. This is America. We believe in free speech. You can say whatever you want.”

He blinked. “And the whole Prince of Darkness thing doesn’t bug you?”

“Well, yes … if it were true, but it’s not. I know you, Stan, and that’s just not you. Besides, Satan wouldn’t have a dog.” Angela smiled sweetly.

“What about the Hounds of Hell?”

“Your dog is not a hound of hell, Stan.” Angela said. “Look at it.”

The dog rolled onto his back, wriggled, and farted.

“Not a very good one, anyway,” Stan muttered. Silence fell. Then they spoke at the same time.

“Well….” she began.

“The contracts?” he asked, a lift of hope in his voice.

“It’s your job. I might not like some of your business practices—” she thought of Weldon Frame and the Independent Entity and shuddered “—but that doesn’t mean you’re evil. Not really evil, at any rate.”

“You’re right,” rasped Babe. She was slouching in the doorway, one hip braced against the doorjamb. “His heart was never in it.” She squinted at Stan. “You should go back to your old job.”

“No market for it,” he said sadly.

“Oh, I dunno.”

“Who’d believe in me these days?” He said it like he really wanted an answer.

“Hell, who wouldn’t? The tree huggers? Green Giant?”

“We love you right here,” Angela said desperately, but they had forgotten she was present. Or maybe they had gone somewhere she could not follow.

“Ya think?” asked Stan.

“Hell, yeah. Look, Bub, ya gave it a good shot,” said Babe. She straightened up and dropped her cigarette deliberately into the drift of contracts. “But the girlie’s right. It’s not you any more than this is me. We’re more than this, and I for one, am damned sick of this gig.”

Stan thought of Weldon Frame and his seedy little revenge plot, of having to deal with beings like The Freak, of being at the beck and call of every mortal with his knickers in a twist … and something that had seemed as dead as the ivy growing (or not growing) on his walls put out a tiny new green sprig. The sprig grew, divided, spread, put down roots.

“Yeah. We are,” Stan said at last. Flame flickered on his fingernail. He stooped and held it to a fluttering contract. The paper blackened, curled. Orange flame flowed up its side and jumped to the next paper. Stan nodded, lifted his chin, straightened, and then, to Angela’s dismay, he began to grow, taller, thicker, more muscular.

The contracts blazed up. Angela stumbled back, her hands covering her nose and mouth, her eyes streaming. The little dog yelped and dashed out the back door. Stan wavered and shifted in the heat pulsing from the flames. Babe did, too, but Angela had eyes only for Stan. As she peered through the orange glow of the rising flames, the familiar, beloved face grew harder, chiseled, weathered. His grimy T-shirt and jeans split and fell to the floor. Muscles twisted and flexed like oak roots. The grimy, wrinkled skin tightened as the body swelled within it, then split and fell away, leaving a being whose skin glowed and shimmered with all the greens in the world.

Beside him, Babe grew taller, fuller, firmer, and if she wasn’t young, it no longer mattered. Great beauty transcends mere prettiness, and the power of greening life transcends mere beauty. Angela looked at Babe and Stan. She had no choice; she had to acknowledge the truth: Whoever the vast, green being standing among the blazing contracts was, he wasn’t Stan, and she didn’t love him. He grew larger, darker, greener, shattered into a million pieces that shattered into a million more, and still he stood there, ancient, gnarled, verdant, rampant. And then Babe lifted her arms and with something like a groan the Green Man was upon her, and in her, and she screamed her pleasure. The world rippled and split, and when it crashed back together the pieces had realigned themselves.

Angela’s body responded to the life throbbing around her, through her skin and body, between her legs. Terrified, she turned and ran from the kitchen. A twining mass of ivy had penetrated the wall, splitting it wide open, pulsing and growing even as she watched. Angela fled the house. On the street, where the rusty Mustang used to stand, a great black horse, eyes glowing, mane and tail smoky, reared and stamped. Light flashed off its satiny hide, glowed in its delicate crimson nostrils.

Rioting vines and saplings entangled Angela’s feet as she scuttled for home. The sidewalk and street receded as she raced toward them, stumbling on her high heels, tripping on thrashing greenery, and then, on the buckling sidewalk. Terrified and weeping, she clambered up her steps and plunged into her clean white house.

She slammed the door and shot the dead bolt, then leaned against it, panting. She needed one last look, just to make sure. She twitched her curtain aside with trembling fingers and peeped out at the street. Stan’s house was gone. In its place stood a green and rustling forest, the sort of forest, Angela imagined, in which wolves, wildcats, and witches might live. The infinite wrongness of such a forest in the California desert terrified her.

Typos can be more than just mistakes. They can become opportunities for creativity, for change, for play, for the birth of new ideas. A typo in my college class eventually led to a “Satan” who, because of Angela’s determination that he is not the “Prince of Darkenss” but “Stan,” can become more than just the embodiment of ultimate evil. He can see and understand the smallness of what he has become, and can choose to reclaim his older persona as the consort of the Great Mother, and co-creator of life. Thank all gods for typos. They may be the saving of us all. Here, just for fun, is the rest of the passage from Redeeming Stanley, Angela’s response to having been brought face to face with the reality of Stan and Babe. Enjoy!

And then a hoarse, ancient roar rose from the trees, and her body pulsed madly, awfully, in response, and outside the rain began sheeting down, even though it was the middle of the dry season.

Something blazed up at Angela’s core. It burned like a million suns, shattering through her, at once sublime and horrifying, resolving itself into a knot that exploded wonderfully, formidably, changing her forever. When Angela came to herself, she was a trembling wreck, slick with sweat, curled down against the door, fighting the dimming pulses that still surged through her body, forcing her to remember that Christian or not, she was Woman first, last, and forever. Rain pattered on her roof.

She sought refuge from the terrible knowledge in the same way she had always hidden from things she didn’t want to know. She turned on a lamp, crept to the bathroom, stripped off her sweat-soaked clothes, showered, wrapped herself in her fluffy white robe, came back to her cozy white living room, wedged herself into a corner of her sofa, curled her legs under her, and opened her Bible. Slowly the archaic language worked its familiar magic. Her legs stopped shaking, then her fingers. Her breathing slowed. Her head dropped onto her arm. She slept.

For a few days Angela hid fearfully in her house until the shock had faded and she realized that what she had seen and experienced couldn’t possibly have happened. Normal people, even grungy people like Stan and Babe, didn’t transmogrify into something as awe-inspiring and terrible as gods, and even if they did, gods wouldn’t do that, and especially not right in front of her. Real gods like Jesus didn’t have sex. She taught herself to chuckle when she thought of it. And as for what had happened to her, well, it just couldn’t have.

Good Christian women didn’t behave like that. They didn’t have those kinds of feelings. When they made love, it was only with their wedded husbands, at night, in bed with the light off, neatly, quietly, and politely, not slumped alone against the front door, seeing visions of twining ivy and rampant oak. They didn’t collapse on the floor, screaming, knowing they would die if they didn’t ride the wave to its mysterious, crashing end. She must have dreamed it. It had never happened. But by then what she believed no longer mattered.

She had been the fulcrum upon which Stan and Babe’s true natures had rested, tipped, righted themselves, and wobbled on in a completely new—or very old—direction. What Angela did or did not believe made no difference at all anymore, not even to Angela herself. She had other things to occupy her mind, like how she would explain herself at church. Not about Stan and Babe—for all the rest of her life, she never, ever breathed a word about what happened in Stan’s kitchen to anyone. No, Angela’s worry was much closer to home.

Some things transcend belief, and what Angela had set in motion was one of those things. Believe it or not, the Green Man and the Great Mother had come back and were changing the world. Believe it or not, the world included Angela. And believe it or not, it also included one anemic, knock-kneed, buck-toothed little sperm, a sperm convinced in his heart of hearts that he knew exactly what the pearly, luminescent egg before him wanted, that the egg, in fact, thought he was Hot and was just waiting for his tentative, knock-kneed, buck-toothed penetration—in short, a sperm that Weldon Frame had carelessly left lying around inside Angela’s tidy, hygienic, probably snow-white uterus the one and only time he had been there. The sperm had eluded detection in her subsequent housekeeping frenzies, lurking in out-of-the-way corners, evading eviction, though he had long ago forgotten why. By now he was well over a hundred years old in sperm years. He was suffering from the spermish equivalents of senility, incontinence, and Alzheimer’s.

And then the cataclysm. Just as the egg appeared before him, young, dewy, glowing, and infinitely desirable, a deep pulse shocked him into an epiphany. The little sperm perked up, lifted his hoary head, feebly flicked his tail once, twice, thrice, and hobbled forward. And then, at long last, he was in, and for a split second he felt pure bliss. He had won out over all the young, attractive, athletic sperm, the ones who could still navigate without walkers, the ones who had dashed past him in the Great Race, who had milled around aimlessly until Angela had tidied them away.

He Possessed The Egg. And then, too late, the little sperm realized his mistake. If he had ever thought beyond this moment, he would have imagined himself bathed in post-coital bliss, reclining against the egg’s pearly interior wall, remote in hand, tracking scores for his boys as he drifted off.

But it wasn’t like that at all.

Too late he recognized a central truth—the thing possessed also possesses. The egg seized him, sucked him dry and cast him aside, and then, using his life’s blood, she swelled, grew, divided. With his last flicker of consciousness, the little sperm realized sadly that the egg wasn’t Hot after all. In the end, like all of her kind, she had proven to be a Bitch. She was out for what she could get.

Had Angela known of the pathetic little sperm’s existence, she would have been unsympathetic. In fact, if she hadn’t had the condition of her perfect, almond-shaped nails to consider, she would have happily ripped his tiny tail away from his bulbous, vacuous head. Some things transcend belief, and what the little sperm and the pearly egg had become was one of those things. The egg divided, divided, divided, sprouted a head, arms, legs. She grew a heart, a brain, an umbilical cord. Angela was pregnant, and it was all Stan’s fault for fooling her into thinking he could be Saved.

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My Grandpa was a world champion gardener, and each night as twilight fell he’d go out and pull weeds. I liked to go out and sit between the rows and watch his hands, and while I watched, he told me stories. He told me some stories just the once; others he told me over and over, until I could repeat them myself, in his words. Even today, I can close my eyes and see him kneeling in the garden, and hear his soft, husky voice with its faint traces of his childhood German.

Listening to Grandpa taught me to listen to cadences, note characteristic turns of phrase, and play with words. In listening to his stories, I learned to see my own life as a story–or, rather, a play. Here’s a little snippet from when I was about ten. Enjoy.

SCENE

SETTING: It is early evening. Bill kneels in the garden, digging weeds out carefully, tucking them into a gunny sack, then spooning dirt around the roots, trickling in water, adding a little fertilizer. Bodie kneels facing him. Beside her is a waving pile of leafy green weed tops.

BILL (looking at the pile of weed tops): Here, Bodie, let me get that. You have ta dig these things out from the bottom, see? If you leave anything—even a little piece like this (shows her a half-inch root segment)—it comes back just that much worse. Every single bit of root you leave laying around turns into a new plant. Bet you didn’t know that, huh.

BODIE: Huh uh…What’cha doin’ now?

BILL: I’m checkin’ around the roots here, just makin’ sure I’ve got all the weed roots out a the plant roots. If ya don’t, those weed roots’ll just strangle the plant right where she stands. Then, (digging carefully) when you’ve got the weed roots all out ya loosen up the dirt like this, an’ pour in a little fertilizer, an’ a little water, an’ then ya tamp the dirt down…just knuckle it in real easy, like this. Ya gotta be careful a the roots, see.

BODIE (watching): Can I help?

BILL: Why don’t’cha carry these weeds over an’ dump’em for Honey Dew and Joe? They eat’em, don’t they?

BODIE: Only if I hold’em in my hand. They’ll eat anything we hold in our hands. Watch this.

(She jumps up, hops over the garden rows, leans down, and pulls a big onion. Bill leans back on his heels and rests his hands on his thighs, trowel still held in one hand. Bodie hops down another few rows and pulls up a fistful of something else.

BILL: What’cha got there?

BODIE: Onions an’ horseradishes.

BILL: Horses don’t eat that stuff.

BODIE: Honey Dew does.

BILL: This I gotta see.

Bill stands and follows Bodie over to the fence, carrying the sack of weeds with him. Bodie leans down and slides between the strands of barbed wire, holding her onion and horseradishes close to her chest.

BODIE: Here, Honey Dew. Here girl. (A white Welsh pony lifts her head, then comes running up to Bodie.) Here you go, girl. (Bodie holds the onion out on the flat of her hand. Honey Dew takes a big bite, and then another, then chews and swallows, head bobbing, tears streaming down her beautiful white face.)

BODIE: Ya like that, girl?  Here, try this. (She holds out a horseradish. Honey Dew bites into it, chews it up, and swallows it, tearing up even more fiercely. Bodie rub the pony’s nose, then her neck.) What a good girl! (Honey Dew drops her head onto Bodie’s shoulder and sighs.)

BILL (dumping the weeds over the fence): Well, I’ll be…. Here you go, girl. These gotta taste better’n onions and horseradishes.

BODIE: She won’t eat’em.

(Honey Dew walks over to the weeds, sniffs them, and walks away. Bodie leans down and picks up a handful.)

BODIE: Here, Honey Dew, here girl.

(Honey Dew turns, ears up, and hurries back to Bodie.  Bodie holds the weeds out. Honey Dew lips them up and eats them with every evidence of enjoyment.)

BILL: (chuckling) Well I’ll be darned. (He watches Bodie pet the pony, then turns and looks over the yard at the children playing, then down across the river. Then he goes back to the row he has been weeding, sinks to his knees, groaning a bit, and goes back to weeding. After a while Bodie runs up to the house, then comes back with a halter.

BILL (sitting up straight to watch her again): Whatcha doin’?

BODIE: Gettin’ Honey Dew. Marie wants to give her a bath and take her in the house again.

(She clips the rope on Honey Dew’s halter and leads her out of the pasture, closing the gate behind her.

BILL: Why you wanna take’er in the house?

BODIE: I don’t. (She leads Honey Dew away)

Bill shakes his head, chuckles, and goes back to weeding.

PAM: (shouting) Marie, don’t bath’er. It’s too late. She’ll catch cold.

MARIE: (shouting back) I can’t take’er in dirty. (She turns the hose on.)

PAM: Marie, don’t. She’ll get sick!

MARIE: No she won’t. It’s warm out.

PAM: But it’ll get cold before she’s dry.

MARIE: Grandpa wants to see.

(Bill weeds on, oblivious. Bodie comes back into the garden and drops to her knees by Bill.)

BILL: What’s all the shouting?

BODIE: Marie wants to wash Honey Dew and Pam won’t let’er.

BILL: Awful late to be washin’ a horse tonight, ain’t it?

BODIE: (reasonably) She can’t take’er inside dirty.

BILL: Why’d she want to do that, anyway?

BODIE: So you can see.

BILL:  She’d do that for me?

BODIE: Well sure. We all would.

BILL (looking at her, half-smiling and shaking his head): Huh. (He goes back to digging.)

BODIE: Why you goin’ so slow, Grandpa?

BILL: Cause I gotta be careful. I get in a hurry, I’ll hurt the roots.

BODIE: Daddy says we have to hurry up a lot.

BILL: Sometimes you go too fast you can get hurt.

BODIE: (sadly) Uh huh.  Do girls have roots?

BILL: (chuckling) I don’t know. I suppose they might.

BODIE: I love you, Grandpa.

BILL: Huh?

BODIE (shouting): I love you.

BILL (quietly): I love you, too.

BODIE: Can I give you a kiss?

BILL: (turning his head and tapping his cheek) Plant one right there.

Bodie leans forward and kisses his cheek gently, then jumps up and runs away. Bill looks after her, then shakes his head, smiles, and goes back to weeding as the sky darkens into night.

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I’ve been yearning to get my hands on this recipe ever since Patrick came home from his friend Dakota’s house and told me about it. He described Kraut Runza in reverent tones normally reserved for masterpieces like the Sistine Chapel.

“It’s so good, Mom. It’s like little hamburgers with the hamburger baked right into the bun. They’re great!”

“Great. I’ll call her and see if I can get the recipe,” I said, all Betty Crockery, as if I ever make anything that doesn’t start out as a mix these days.

“No Mom,” Patrick said.

“Why not?”

He thought, and then he said, “You have things you do well. This is her thing.”

And that was when I realized that he was getting something at Leatrice, Mike, and Dakota’s house that he wasn’t getting at home–and that it was all right. It was not necessary for Patrick that I make Kraut Runza; he had Leatrice to do that for him.

For a moment there was a funny little twisting by my heart. Since his birth, it has been Patrick and me. But now it’s time to make room for other people in his life, people like Mike and Leatrice, who include him in their lives from time to time, people like Megan, who runs his after-school program, and Marty, who cans peaches for his birthday present, people like Marian, who takes him to youth group, and his teachers who foster growth and talent in him that I never dreamed of.

Sometimes it seems like we spend the first part of our children’s lives holding onto them as tightly as we can, and then we spend the rest of their lives loosening our grip, and making room in their lives for new relationships. That’s where we are now, and I am grateful there are good people around us who are ready to be part of Patrick’s life. Thanks for everything, Mike and Leatrice.

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